Long distance relationships are hard. and I knew they would be hard. I've heard the stories that all long distance relationships get broken up. which isn't true.
but they are really painful.
My boyfriend and I are in college. I'm in Illinois. He is in Georgia. I used to see him every day. Or almost everyday. This summer, we spent basically every day together.
and now i can only hear his voice over the phone. or see his face on skype. and I don't even get to do those two things very often. He likes his privacy so most of the time we just talk on facebook or text.
and when you're away from someone you love for FOUR WEEKS. it seems like an eternity. and knowing that there are 3 more months until i get to see him again, breaks my heart. I cry at night when i think about it. i imagine him being there, holding me. what i wouldn't give for a hug! for him to hold my hand. to kiss me. anything. i just need him there. I had a dream a week ago that i saw him on a street corner and i ran over to him and he held me and i held him back and we kissed and walked down the street holding hands. the simplest of needs but they mean everything to me.
I know the minute I see him for christmas break I am just going to sob and sob and hold him so tightly. i wont even be able to let go. knowing me, i wont even be able to stand up. my knees will buckle and i'll just collapse in his arms. so happy to see him but sad that it's been so long.
and knowing that it will happen all over again. that at the end of 3 weeks, we'll leave and I wont see him again for four months or so.
and people do it everyday.
I guess the advantage is, if we're in a fight, we have plenty of time and space to cool off. then again- words can hurt really bad. but then the time and space is even more necessary.
