high hopes

I shouldn't let my hopes get up as high as they do, and as often. It's leading to constant disappointment.
This doesn't need to be happening.


But it happens all the time anyway.
because I dwell. I lock onto ideas. and once I'm excited for such and such idea, I'm just upset when it doesn't go through. I don't let things go as easily in that sense either. then again i'm super emotional and crazy. so I guess I have a reason to be. but this is just becoming unfair. I have to stop being overly sensitive. I can feel myself being ridiculous. yet I can't help but be offended or upset or let down. You'd think that living with my sister for three years, I'd be able to accept disappointment by now. Not the case. Not the case at all. Apparently when it's a different source I don't respond to same message. and it's because their on a pedestal. which I guess is my own fault.