Until We Bleed

Until We Bleed- Lykke Li and Mikael's cello

So I was just at the doctor's office to make sure that I don't have mono. If I had gone yesterday, It is possible I could've- but based upon what I was feeling today, no chance in hell. Yesterday I felt like dying. Today I lived. (I win the cheesy award for that one) So they took my blood just to make sure nothing is wrong with me- especially since they haven't taken my blood ever. I don't think. at least not at this doctors office.
I've learned that I either stare at the needle and then take a few deep breathes and then make some kind of corny joke to lighten the mood and then the nurse gives me this weird look and then I sit their awkwardly until she's done. This time I had the cool nurse, she's indian (not that being indian makes you automatically cool, but I feel like it at least gives you a couple more cool points [is racial favoritism the same thing as being racist? I don't dislike the other ones, I just like some more than others] ) she's pretty young and really relateable. Like a peer rather than a starkly cold professional. It was comforting. So instead of doing what I normally do, this time I just gabbed on and on until she was done. I stared at the wall. Which was nice. I didn't even have to look at it. I was surprised how fast it went- because I was focused on the story and not the drawing of blood.

 We talked about how I often slap my boyfriend to get him back in line. I use this on most men actually. It's surprisingly effective. You should try it some time. and no lame slaps, it should be a powerful one. to show them you have the power. It gives me such a self esteem boost- especially being a woman.

back to the doctor's office. My doctor mentioned i might have a thyroid condition with my throat being swollen-ish lately and my constant low temperature. It's usually like 96 or 97, when most people are 98. because of this, it is difficult to tell whether or not I have a fever because If I have a low grade fever like 99 or 100, I wouldn't know because my thermometer would read around 98- which is normal. I wonder what kind of thyroid condition I would have if I have one. I also hope my blood reports something interesting. not necessarily bad, just interesting. I still don't know what blood type I have. and I think that's an important piece of information to know during your lifetime.


and because I gorged on chocolate earlier, I felt like throwing up at the doctor's office. note to self: never gorge on chocolate again.