I hate this. I HATE this. I'm so exhausted and I can't sleep. My mind is just reeling over nothing. Things like:
•It's hot in here
•I'll use that flower tote bag in college as my go-to tote. But what if I need a drawstring bag?
•why didn't my sister go to Millikin?
•I didn't like Millikin
•why were those girls so dressed up?
•My sister should move into an apartment near Millikin and go to school
•I wonder if she still has that Millikin t shirt- I can trade it in for a free Redbird shirt
•what if I end up always wearing cute clothes on the days we paint for practicum
•how old is Michelle from Bunheads. She tried to pass for 25, she's probably early/mid 30's.
•that dance was so random but cool
•black haired girl who's name I can't remember- Sasha is impossible skinny. I wonder if she has an eating disorder.
•why aren't I falling asleep? These thoughts aren't important or pivotal.
•shut off brain. Just let it all go. Shut down, like the computer. If the thoughts are so important they'll come back again
• I don't want to pick up my cell phone to write all this down because staring at a screen keeps you from falling asleep- grabs phone anyway.
•why are my feet so itchy? I should get it checked out by a doctor. I can't stop scratching. Lotion doesn't help.
•chapped lips. Kissing in the winter time. Always needing lip balm.
•my feet hurt with scratched-up pain, my hands cramped
•how does a normal person deal with ear wax?
•still thinking about how much my feet hurt and how much I want them to stop hurting and atop being itchy
• i need to shave my legs but it's almost not worth it because all my shorts are in the laundry basket
•I NEED to see a chiropractor. Asap. Last time I went he was like "you probably have scoliosis" that was 2 years ago >.<
•I want to get a massage done. I'm so tense all the time.
I always hate when this happens. I've basically figured out that the only way to keep my brain sane when I'm trying to fall asleep with no avail is to plug in my iPod and listen to that, so that my brain focuses on the music rather than on the madness within.
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