one minute you're a horrible person who doesn't listen to me, who doesn't make time for me.
the next minute i love you more than i can stand and i miss you more than i can bear.
i am so confused. my friends are getting so worried about me. we keep breaking up and getting back together. they think he's no good.
and i thought he was no good too.
then my roommate and i had this long talk. when we were on the bus to meijer's and i told her about how much i love him and how we named our kids already and how i want to spend the rest of my life with him.
is it the distance that is making me this crazy? is it that i haven't seen him in almost 2 months now. i haven't been able to hold him close and kiss him like we used to? Or is it truly a bad relationship. i hate always breaking up and getting back together and i'm a bitch and everyone thinks i'm a horrible person.
"can't you love your rock? can't you love your everything?"
i dont know what to do anymore. i dont want to be stuck in this relationship- i want to explore and meet new people. but i also know i've felt the safest in this relationship. i've felt cared for. and loved, even if i've been really lonely lately because he's really busy. and i'm not.
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