"I feel so weird. It's over and i feel almost nothing.i'm sad but i'm not. and there are so many things i regret not doing. but in the end the days came and they passed and i'm right here and right now. now to go on living my life and follow wherever it leads me."
I have no closure with high school. none at all. I feel like i'm in the abyss.
So much for being allergy free :/"
it's statuses like the one above that make me feel super annoying. This is what's going through my head- I'm bored. what am I complaining about now? New status awaits me!
Other people comment on it and talk about their own allergy woes or feel sorry for me, but what's the point of that. I thrive on sympathy already, I shouldn't take in any more of it.
yet another instance of information that really could've stayed in my head. my virtual friend population really didn't need to know about this, but I think i do things like this for a few reasons. One- what i listed earlier. Two- i don't have very many friends to talk to. I have quite a few friends, but if i texted them at random times of the day and said "ugh oh my gosh I'm stressing out over getting this dress fitted" they would be very irritated with me- hence I'd have less friends. So I guess if i post it on facebook, people can comment as they wish without me being annoying to all my close friends..... not that i have many close friends.
I got it altered it was only $12. :)
1) i find it in the lost and found. yay.
2) someone found it and returned it to textbook drop off anyway.
3) no one found it/it sitting in a pile in the science deparment never to be scanned. then i owe $90 and can't get my diploma.
crap. D:"
another instance of me babbling. This is because I love to talk and I get stressed out very easily and have no close friends to pour all my stress on and so it has to come out some how so i don't explode from being so stressed out.
and someone returned the book to drop off. i got my diploma! woot!
[i wonder if i could do something like this and publish it? facebook statuses paired with witty commentary... maybe]
"My last day of high school is officially over.
I'm sad to go and yet so ready to be rid of that awful place.
I'm a freshman once again. Funny... I've always felt like a freshman. I'm just resuming the norm."
this goes along with the graduation post. Notice they're going in chronological order backwards.
I'm excited and scared for college. I'm so ready to be out of the house and rid of my family but I'm not ready to be away from my loving boyfriend and underclassmen high school friends.
I will be your Ferdinand and you my wayward girl
How many nights of talking in hotel rooms can you take?
How many nights of limping around on pagan holidays?
Oh, elope with me in private and we’ll set something ablaze
A trail for the devil to erase"
Piazza, New York Catcher by Belle and Sebastian
from the Juno Soundtrack
I often post song lyrics for one of two reasons. The first reason being that the words have to do with how I'm currently feeling about myself, my situation, or people in my life. The second reason is that it is simply a very good song and I have it stuck in my head. :)
I posted this song because I spent a very good day with my boyfriend and the first line "elope with me, Miss Private, and we'll sail around the world" really struck a chord with me. (or is it struck a cord? I'm a music geek so I like the first one better :P )
okay you get the point of facebook statuses.
yea i'm pretty much done with this one.
yea i'm pretty much done with this one.
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