day 6

today was another bad day as far as my diet is concerned.

food log
cheerios
soy milk
apple

white rice
soy sauce
sweet and sour-esque chicken (only had a few pieces)
apple

protein bar
banana
2 crackers

chocolate covered graham cracker
3 chocolate kisses
bowl of popcorn
half a bar of chocolate
a truffle
a ferrero roche chocolate
pringles
a bite of sorbet.


yea.. I went overboard.
Even though the day in general was good, just the ending that wasn't.
math class was fine
therapy, lots of crying. more divided feelings about my mother and our non-relationship. I'm very at war with this and my emotions and everything that is going on, etc.
spotted the on campus petting zoo.
stagecraft boring
quick lunch
moved stuff to car
PETTING ZOO PARTY. I got to pet: 5 goats, 1 mama sheep, 1 Zebu, 2 lambs, 1 alpaca, 1 pony, 1 llama, and i saw three chickens but didn't pet them.
The lambs were so sweet and little and their fur was so soft. one of them licked my finger. another one "baah"ed when i said goodbye. so adorable <3
last class of the day was cut short, got to come home early.

mom was on an, "we're having guests over" rampage. and was just a bitch to everyone.
i tried to talk to emma about it in the car but she was too busy defending mom, or herself or whatever.
we fought. again.
she went to work out. i stayed in the car.
i called my boyfriend, sobbing, for support.
all he could say was "i'm not going to know what that feels like"
all he should of said was "its awful and i know its unfair but i love you and i'll always love you"

sigh.

and then i came home and ate all that chocolate.


on the health side: this is what my workout consisted of
10ish minutes on the elliptical. burned 115 calories. my Achilles tendon was pulled in a weird way making it hard to work on the elliptical. I didn't want to pull it and put me out of exercising. I think my hip may be out of alignment also. My stride didn't feel natural.
I burned 30 calories on the rowing machine, now with real water. not even kidding. it was hard work but i liked it.
I tried the bike but my leg was still bothering me so i burned like 15 calories there. then i did some chest presses, leg presses, worked on the assisted lift machine, as well as did as many crunches as my body could handle. Having a trim stomach is the main thing I'm working towards. I don't care so much that i'm a size 6/8. or That i have big boobs (though i would like to be able to fit back into my bras again. I'm popping out!). I really just want a lean midsection. So i'm not spilling out over the top of my jeans, or have the very awkward looking 'doughnut hole".
I definitely didn't work as hard as I would've liked, since I couldn't do as much cardio.