day 9

i'm really sucking at this fitness thing.

part of a streudel
chex cereal and soy milk

nut bar
ramen- so much sodium
chex mix

bowl of chocolate ice cream with peanut butter and hot fudge in a waffle cone bowl

pretzels and cream cheese
small square of lasagna
awesome fruit smoothie: 100% juice, strawberries, mangoe, peaches, part of a banana, kiwi. I was disappointed that we didn't have any kale or spinach for me to throw in
2 cookies i felt gross eating.

this was not a great day for food. This will be easier when i'm back on campus and picking an apple over cereal is so much easier.

i tried doing the harry potter work out today. it was hard! and it was weird when i wasn't moving. I fast forwarded though some parts, and in the end I just got bored. I probably exercised for like 20 minutes/half hour at most.

I decided not to go to the show with my mom and sister. 1 part of me is like, i missed spending time with my mom. but while i was home i packed up the majority of my stuff, worked on a paper, and picked a prose piece for an assignment, sorted laundry, etc. and I would've been dragged to mom's friend's party and apparently everyone was really drunk and racist. So I'm glad I stayed home.

I had yet another argument with my boyfriend. and when i finally called him, everything was better. everything is better when i can hear his voice. he doesn't get how powerful that is for me. very powerful. We fight more over text. we fight less when we hear what the other is saying, and tone of voice, etc. I hope we stay together. I need him to be here for me. I just need him to be more supportive. and if he can't do that, then I'm afraid it would be time to let him go. He would be making everything more difficult for me when he is supposed to be making it easier.

but the phone call went very well so that makes me happy.

I think I'll go to bed now. You need a good night's sleep if you want to get healthy now.
tomorrow i will write another page of my essay and type up the parts of the book i want to use for my prose. Then i will finish packing up and be on my way, back to school.